I have a confession. Yes, I’m going to put it out for the world to see. From July to now, I have gained 10 lbs. I’m not devastated about it. In fact, some days I feel healthier and like I have some substance to me but then other days when I look at pictures from back during the summer, I like the way I looked. I will admit at times I felt scrawny and it is quite possible I lost too much but I am thinking that 135 would be a comfortable weight for me. It would be a nice medium. I am blaming the extra bit of “love” for my knee injury, which is partly why I refuse to go to the doctor. I know what she will do. I will end up having to go through a bunch of scans and then some physical therapy and it will be a waste. Instead, I’ll save the VA some medical costs and just take care of this myself. I will lose the little bit of “love” that I packed on. I am certainly not ashamed of my little change. Everything still fits and in fact I fill out my jeans better (something I used to complain about during the summer when my jeans would bag off my bootie…not attractive). This leads me to believe that I have put on some muscle, which I would expect considering I have been hitting the weight training pretty hard with my work out buddy. He was there for me to instill some consistent weight training and I was there to get his cardio up. We are a pretty good balance in the gym.
So the plan to get this loss going:
1. No alcohol (except for my birthday party when I will consume three glasses of wine…that’s not bad, is it?) I think my love for wine has been a huge contributor to what has happened. I can’t help it…I really do appreciate the taste of wine. I love wine tasting and I love the social aspect of it.
2. One small snack at 6pm and if I get hungry, grab a bag of veggies and munch away.
3. Of course, I am still sticking to my vegetarian diet but I need to incorporate MORE fresh fruits and veggies into my diet. Fresh is always best!
My running has improved. Some days have been harder than others. I tackled a 4 mile trail run on Monday which actually went quite well. I certainly did not push myself very hard since I averaged about a 9:40 mile. Over the summer I was doing an 8:30 mile…but I will get there again. Tuesday and Wednesday I ventured to the gym with Marsella. She loves going to the gym and playing with the kids so I try to get her there a few times a week. When she is in school, I take advantage of the alone time and always hit the trails. After school, she asks me “Mom, did you go running already?” I respond and she comes back with, “Awe man, but I wanna go to the gym, mom!” She’s pretty persuasive. Sometimes she can sweet talk me into going to the gym for a light workout so she can wear her pretty little self out! Tonight I should have taken the night off but I couldn’t resist a cycle class with my buddy. I needed to break it up, give my knees a rest (but not COMPLETE rest…I struggle with this), and do something a little different.
Marsella….oh my little princess. She has been pretty good for me. She’s 4 years old now and it’s time for her to start sleeping in her own bed. We have had some nights of very little sleep but it’s such an amazing feeling to be able to sleep without being smacked in the face. Then to wake up, peak in her room, and see she is sleeping soundly, just makes my heart flutter! Of course, I always go over to her bed and make sure she is still breathing. Hey, I’m a mom, I do weird stuff like that. She is amazing me more and more with her vocabulary and the things that she recalls. She definitely is watching her mommy.
I feel like I have been on a roller-coaster this winter break. My emotions have been up and down and it could be because I’m getting myself back into running, have had no school, and no church groups. Having two months off because of my knee was no good. Having no classes in session leaves my mind stale. I need to be in school and constantly learning something to remain sane. I have too much time to think. My mind needs to remain focused on some sort of material. I wish I would have utilized more time this break to dive into my bible studies. Really, I have no excuse. I am not ashamed to admit that I need accountability that my church groups provide. With my new spring semester schedule, I will have to give up my mom’s group. On the flip side, I will dive into the Women’s Ministry and see how that goes. This time shall come to an end soon though. My life will get back into order by the end of this month. Oh I can’t wait.